so what's been going on?

I've been drowning in my work and am about to go back to school. I'll pursue a double major and hopefully a minor in either art or something else. For the majors, I'm looking at Environmental Science and English or Philosophy.

My animals and hubby are doing good, the house is a mess at the moment, but I'm cleaning it all up today. I've just been so drowning in stress at work lately, and feeling powerless to do anything about it.

Plans for Yule are underway and I'm looking forward to it.

I've had a lot of ideas floating around, and am considering a few posts about Deity, Winter, animals and the like.

Hubby and I are trying to rescue some kittens with the assistance of a neighbor, and if we catch them and find homes for them - great. Yet, if there isn't a home for some of them, then we may end up with another kiddo. Darn. ^^

I've been watching the Nightline Face-Off between Kirk Cameron and the Rational Responders, and was disappointed to hear the same discussion that you can find anywhere here online. That goes for both sides, sadly.

I've even had that whole 10 commandments line of argument that started it off used on me before. I despise that.

Thank all that's sacred that not all theists or atheists are evangelical about their beliefs.

I have to say I have more respect for those who can stand up and say "I don't know, but this is why I think this is the possibility..." than I do for someone who starts off with, "No, I'm right."

so yah.

Lots of thinkin' going on here.

In other news... my mothers health continues to fail, my sister's fibrosis is back and she can't be treated for it the same way again, and my eldest cat is really starting to slow down. On the good side of things, the DH is up for a possible promotion, I have awesome friends, and will have a really big announcement to make in a few days. ^_^

It's been about two months since my last post here.

Since then I've moved, celebrated a birthday, worked my butt off, finished some art, and generally been going about the great adventure of life.

I've been reminded of how blessed I am to have my husband, my friends and my animal companions.

I've also had my great niece diagnosed with cerebral palsy and blindness. :(

Such is the way of things.

The painful and tragic balanced against the joyous and ecstasy.

Isn't it amazing how diverse a Deity can be?

I've been chained to doing research into one of the Ladies I have been called by for a while now, and She's been demonstrating just how diverse Her expressions are.

I'm no slacker when it comes to research, so I'm not talking about the websites on geocities that are yanked out of the author's UPG and a bunch of B.S. tossed around to fill it out.

I've read a book of research from a HPS who leads a group of covens that all venerate Her, and downloaded dissertations and thesis from academia. I'm reading a published dissertation now.

And while I can see where the poorly researched get some of their assumptions, I am also just floored by how much more is there for those to see... if they are willing to make the efforts.

It's such a rewarding thing. (and she reminds me of it when I neglect to do some studying every day here lately.)

It's good to have reminders that the relationship really is a two way street. I know She's here to help me with my transitory moments, but not how long She'll be here or if this is a lifetime kinda thing, but I'm enjoying the time I have with Her.

On the other hand, when I was called upon at the Beltaine camp out to invoke the Earth Mother (who is closely related to another of the Goddesses that is in my life) I had a sharp warning not to invoke the Lady that I would in private, and it made me bungle the invocation so bad that I've been left feeling guilty and inarticulate. :-/

I know that She's not upset about it, and that I just need to learn that I don't have to be perfect all of the time, but I still catch myself being bothered by it.

In other words, I'm the nerd who excels at being a worry wort.

Life's been alright, just busy and chaotic. I saw a Lady in a dream who could only be Eris while I was out camping, and wonder if She was just winking by or if She's trying something more. I swear my husband should be a diScordIAn of some sort. (He's my God of organized chaos and evil. heh.)

And last and certainly not least. I hope everyone has a blessed Beltane. ^_^

My keyboard and mouse were defective, so we bought new ones - which were also defective. So they replaced them and finally we have a set that is (somewhat) viable.

 Between that and my work schedule lately - today is my thirteenth consecutive work day and my schedule was wonky.

 Thus the silence.

One of my strays hurt one of his paws, so we've been caring for him - Today is his last day to live in my dog's crate. He's been very good.

And we're planning our Beltaine camping trip. My hubby will be coming with. YAY!

So... otherwise, icky female troubles at the moment, but they will go away.

Time to go to work though - talk with ya'll later.

I'm having problems with my computer - intermittently. Promised posts will happen once we figure it out. ;)

At my work, a creepy guy just started working there, and my card readings are all warning me to be careful. So. time to plan a protection spell for myself and my things at work.

grr.

but life is good none-the-less.

to see my Asiatic Lily - go here: http://neheti.deviantart.com

Thanks guys.